Robertson Tribe Updates

Someone made the comment recently that I seemed very excited about moving our family to China and they were in awe of that. Well, yes, I am excited NOW. But getting to this point was not so fun.

Way back when the whole idea of moving to China began to form, I have to tell you, I was not very excited. Moving overseas? No problem. Moving to COMMUNIST China?! Ummm, that’s a problem.

I am not a worrier by nature (praise the Lord!), but this whole topic was causing me to be a different person, at least on the inside. I couldn’t sleep, I had a constant stomach ache, and I was close to tears for months! I couldn’t think about China without crying and begging God not to ask me to move to China …anything but move to China. “I’ll move God. I’ll move overseas. But please God, not China.”

Now, for those who might not know me well in real life, I love to sing. I sing or listen to music as often as I’m able, and have found that music ministers to me in a way that nothing else can. God has used music to speak to me more times than I could even count, and this time was no exception. In fact, it was the most noticeable time of my life.

I had been asked to sing a solo for special music, so I was running through some songs, trying to find something that would work. I have a compilation CD of accompaniment tracks and it’s all hymns and older songs…some are pretty cool. There was one from the 70’s that I love, called “Whatever It Takes”. I thought, “Great, not many people will know that one and it has great words”. So I started singing it and was really liking it. I was actually getting all excited and thinking I’ve found a perfect song to sing. In case you aren’t familiar with the song, here are the words….

Whatever It Takes
Lanny Wolfe

There’s a voice calling me
From an old rugged tree
And His whispers draw closer to me
Leave this world far behind
There are new heights to climb
And a new place in me you will find

chorus
For whatever it takes to draw closer to you Lord
That’s what I’ll be willing to do
For whatever it takes to be more like you
That’s what I’ll be willing to do

verse 2
Take the dearest things to me
If that’s how it must be
To draw me closer to thee
Let the disappointments come
Lonely days without the sun
If through sorrow more like you I become

chorus
For whatever it takes to draw closer to you Lord
That’s what I’ll be willing to do
For whatever it takes to be more like you
That’s what I’ll be willing to do

Then comes the next verse. “WHAM” came the two by four along side my head.

verse 3
Take my houses my lands,
change my dreams, change my plans
for I’m placing my whole life in your hands
and if you call me today…
to a place far away
Lord I’ll go, and your will I’ll obey.

chorus
For whatever it takes to draw closer to you Lord
That’s what I’ll be willing to do
For whatever it takes to be more like you
That’s what I’ll be willing to do

 

(By this point, I’m crying and realize there is absolutely no way I can sing this in front of people without bawling….)

THEN, I get to the end of the bridge and turn into a complete mess because these are the words….

bridge
I’ll trade sunshine for rain
Comfort for pain
That’s what I’ll be willing to do
For whatever it takes for my will to break
That’s what I’ll be willing to do

tag:
That’s what I’ll be willing to do

All I could hear in my head was God is saying, “Are you willing to go where I send you? Are you going to obey or not?!”

I sat and bawled and bawled until little people started knocking on my bedroom door. I pulled myself together and switched into Mama-mode, but I knew, deep down, this was it. This was the moment of truth. I either had to say “Stay” or “Go”.

When hubby came home that night, I explained what had happened, as I continued to bawl. Through my tears, I finally sobbed, “I’ll go. I’ll go” as I collapsed in his arms.

Yup, it was that dramatic.

No, I have not always been excited about this whole idea, but now, I am. I am ready.

“I’ll obey God. I’ll go.”

 

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