no one warned me
I was unprepared for the rush of emotions now that everything is over and we’re home with David. It feels like I need debriefing from it all. I steeled myself for the surgery, prepared for it as much as I could, and sailed through it with a strength that could only come from the Lord. Now, I’m struggling. I am allowing myself to process it all and the emotional dam has burst. Whew….this week could be a long one. 
August 20th, 2006 at 9:17 pm
Guess we can pray a little differently now, huh? ;>) SOOO GLAD to hear that David is progressing well. Hang in there! The Lord is still holding on tight!
August 23rd, 2006 at 3:28 pm
Dear Family, I have been praying so long and had forgotten that I could come here and keep up with things! Glad to hear that things are going so much faster than Doctor imagined! Angels definitely flying here!
So we will keep praying, but for different things now.
Much Love, Sandy and Ray
August 23rd, 2006 at 5:17 pm
Yes, that’s the way it works. Part of the wonder-full way God has put us together includes this capacity to “rise to the occasion” with much that exceeds our ordinary responses; but, equally amazing is that there remains a residue of sorts that must be and can be processed afterwards. The neat thing to note is that now you CAN shift some of your focus to this need within yourself, without in any way short-changing David’s need for you to be “more than fully there” for him. God bless you and all the other caregivers who gallantly ride this roller-coaster-like challenge of life and its crises. Many try to avoid or escape them, but like Gibran once wrote, “. . . But if in your fear you would seek only Love’s peace and Love’s pleasures, Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of Love’s threshing floor, Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears.” Kahlil Gibran, The Prophet.